Time

I had time to reflect last night at work, Ipod on and listening to music, some lyrics stuck in my head "maybe time is all I need and a little hope... im gonna take this moment and breathe it in".
So I text you this morning saying that ive realised for you this is over and im sorry ive been trying to stay in touch when I see now that contact with me isnt what you want.

I miss you with all my heart, I ache and all I want to do is talk to you. If you had just talked to me, a few txts havent helped me to understand, you said you love me in the morning and then said you needed to be alone to sort your life out, which I can understand but you shut me out completely, I think I see now that im not what you need.
I know youre always going to hold a place in my heart, I never let myself love anyone before because I was too afraid of being hurt but im glad I took the chance, I know what its like to want to spend my time with someone and to put someone else first.

I will always be here for you, I hope you get your little boy because youre an amazing dad, anyone can see how much you love Matthew and would do anything for him so you should get to be a real dad, not the minimal hours she allows. If you need any support ill be here, you dont even have to spend time with me.

Good luck with everything, dont forget to be happy and remember that you deserve to be loved by someone amazing.