Working 11/12 hour nights then crawling into bed around 9am absolutely exhausted, not being able to sleep because all I can think about is that youre not there to hold as I fall asleep. I honestly thought you loved me as much as I do you, you said it first, you wanted to move in with me and now youve walked away, you wont return my txt msgs and you didnt pick up when I rang. I know you said you needed to be alone but ive only ever tried to support you and encourage you to do what you keep saying you want to do, fight for your son.
I miss you so much, I ache to have you lying next to me when I sleep and I feel lost when im not working because youre all I can think about and I just want to see you.
At the same time, I know that even if you came back I dont ever want to feel this way again so you would have to show me you werent going to just let me go again, but I dont think youll come back.
I wish you all the luck in the world with your beautiful little boy, you deserve to be with him more than you are now because it's so obvious you want to provide for him and its wonderful to see. And I wish you happiness and love.
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